Greedy

So happy for getting over with last week!

I had so much stuff to do that I ended up not sleeping for over 3 days :O

I slept like a rock afterwards... even missed my class the next morning lol

This weekend was really relaxing and calm :)

I was skyping J for most of the time since I wasn't doing anything 

Over the course of last week, I realized how serious J is with me and...

Me?

Depends on the mood. I feel like "whatever" when I'm at school that I pretty much don't think about him at all. Then there's other times when I just feel like I want to go over to his place and hug him cause he is adorable lol. Only did I realize just now that I am really falling for him hard....

Greed does no good. I believe everything should not be taken for granted. I don't think it's right to keep complaining because you don't have this or that. But I found myself being the greed: wanting more and more even though I should be really happy that someone finds me attracted and actually likes me more than just a friend.

I know it sounds ridiculous to seriously like someone that I've never met before so I am denying that fact. He is going to get busier when he starts working and I am going to make myself even busier as well. I hate when I get depressed over some stupid greed. Last night was the first since years ago that I wanted someone to be next to me. What the.... I was so content just worrying about myself when now I am thinking of someone else!?!? Lame... but anyways...

I made a plan!

I am going to be more involved in school. Find an internship. Maybe a job? I am hoping this will open more doors to meeting new people and creating long lasting friends.

So far, I actually met and made new friends already from my classes :O I am pretty surprised how many new people that I got so close to, especially the guys that I've talked to. That never happened before :O  

Lately, I have gained some self confidence about myself that maybe I am not so repulsive and ugly...?

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Comments

  1. taytay81

    sounds like your doing good

    February 11, 2013
  2. bo989

    J behaving? how old is he? does he live near by? good to hear that your good

    February 11, 2013
    1. sora224

      19, same age as me :P and no.. that’s the problem lol. he lives somewhere in South America lol. and thanks! I try to be…

      February 11, 2013
  3. apollo131

    I just wanted to let you know how absolutely beautiful this picture is stunning

    February 11, 2013
    1. sora224

      lol thanks! I LOVE sleep :P

      February 11, 2013
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