Day 9+10: 19th Birthday :D

Day 9: February 24th.. My 19th Birthday!! :D Forgot exactly what but I ate muchos... but I did not really feel bad, was more lenient on myself today  Suitemates got me cupcakes and received lots of birthday wishes on Facebook and friends ...

Day 7+8: new plan...?

Day 7 What I ate: -quesedilla cheese -salad (black olives, romaine, cranberries, olive oil) - chocolate cookie   -chocolate/cheese cake   -veggie burrito    and other small snacks like...

Day 6 of CHALLENGE14: very lucky being unlucky

Day 6 so what I ate in total today: salad at dining hall (romaine, cranberries, sunflower seeds, black olives, olive oil) 1 small pieces of mochi/chocolate/cake pop while helping at my club fundraiser event 1 apple 1 orange 1 dark...

Days 4+5 of CHALLENGE 14: VERRRRRY slowly

Day 4    My friend sleptover at my place since my roommate was gone for the weekend. Everything was going great regarding food wise, we went swimming for an hour right after we woke up. That was a lot of fun! It's been forever since I last swam....

Day 3: such a weird day

So I pulled out an all nighter on Thursday night, and my best friend and I had a movie night till like 4am so I was REALLY TIRED. Today, I ended up waking up at like 11am but I didnt get out of my bed till like.. 5pm :0 Im not exactly sure why I...

Day 1+2 of CHALLENGE 14!!

K ill be really honest.. IM SO SORRY GUYS!!! :O I binged yesterday (day 1) SO MUCH I think it's cause this week has just been too stressful with homework, I needed sugar to get energy. I didn't get to sleep at ALL last night cause of homework.. but...

Day 7: the "real" day1

I started to once again do the INSANITY video workouts, so maybe that's why I felt better today :) My weight today: 149lbs My goal weight by the end of this week: 140lbs What I ate today:  - 11am: corn soup ( 64 calories ) - 2pm: fiesta...

the mall mirror

I went to the mall with my friend today to shoot pictures for my photo class assignment. She's probably someone I consider my best friend in my college life, and she's probably the only person I've talked to the most about my bad eating habits. She...

Breakdowns and the New Start

Last week was just not going well at all, both my eating habits and just life in general :/   My computer crashed on me so I lost ALL my data. FREAKING PISSED Think of  how long you spend everyday using your computer to write all sorts of...

10 day challenge!

I finally made a list of the rewards I would get when I reach my mini goals.  To start off, I am going on a 300 calories or less + Insanity workouts every day for the next 10 days! My friend and I are going shopping next weekend so I thought...

to be famous

While I was reading for my writing class, it just hit me out of the blue... What do I want to do with my life? I have been fascinated and inspired by famous musicians on Youtube and such that I told myself, "Someday I want to be like them"  But...

This is it.

After failing so many of my diets in the past 3 years, this is it.  At 150lbs, I cannot stand to ignore the scary fact. Just 4 months ago, I used to be at 130lbs. Just 5 years ago, I used to be at 115lbs. I have been only telling myself, "...

how to break the hell cycle

I have a very unhealthy life. After moving into a college dorm, I gained 20 pounds only after 3 months. I believe it is because of my very unhealthy eating habits. I cannot seem to control my eating portions. Every time I get a bag of granola bits...

Senior Picture... need everyone's opinion!

I know it's almost the end of my senior year but I just got my actual senior pictures delivered, but I really don't like them. So I went and took a senior picture on my own, but I just want people's opinion on whether or not I should get these...

How's the New Me?

I finally got the lenses delivered to my house today! :) I tried them on and this is how it looks like... what do you think?         

Is it deceiving to make myself pretty?

Make-up, Fake eyelashes, fake teethes, hair extensions, and the probably the most extreme.. plastic surgery. Sure they all make girls prettier (or at least that's what they think they do), but is that a good thing? I've always thought plastic...

My 18th birthday :)

Just like any other day, I was late to my 1st period English class again.  And it was my birthday, Thursday February 24th! My 18th birthday... how shameful of me to tardy lol. But right when I opened the door to the classroom, I see everyone...

Finally

I'm back on here. I realized I've been typing the wrong username till now... finally I can let out my feelings I've had lately! As always, I've been working hard to keep myself up. I've had a long talk with my close best friend last night since I...

Valentines Day: love for the lovers, hatred for the others.

Valentines Day; I used to love it when February comes. A holiday when my heart beats faster, wanting to confess my love. And few days after that is my birthday. That's how it always went, and I was always happy. This year, only tears just comes...

future happiness V.S. unforgiving past

I'm excited, yet also worried about tomorrow night. I am going to hang out with my friends, so I'm excited about that. My ex and his girlfriend and probably all her group of friends will also be with us, which is what I'm worried about. It's not...

The Two Part of Me

Today, I stayed at home and did some homework. I wonder what my ex is doing...  Why am I even thinking about that? I don't even like him anymore. I was hurt by him and even though he's not in my life anymore, it still kinda hurts. Maybe it's not...

How simple it is to just be HAPPY :)

Even though I miserably failed two BIG tests today, I still feel pretty good. Ironic right? It's all because I didn't think of my ex :D I didn't think of him at all at school or when I got home and my mind was just occupied with school. I...

Dear Time, please go faster.

King of Hearts Dance is coming up this Saturday at our school and I just found out my ex is going with his gf. He completely forgot about me now. Isn't it sad to think your best friend has a happier life now that you're gone? It's all thanks to me,...

What kind of a face should I have when I see you?

I found out I just bombed my AP government and Calculus 2 test so I started the day bad in the beginning. And then I see him walking towards me through the hallway. How great. Every time this happens, I ask myself... how should I look like in...